from tonight i know that you're the only one

we have this new school system whereby all form 6 students are required to stay back until 3.40pm on mondays and tuesdays, and until 3.00pm on wednesdays and thursdays.


by 2pm, everybody started dying already. i didn't eat lunch because i somehow decided that i wouldn't. i wasn't hungry anyway. so now, at 6pm, i am starving yo. but have i told you? that i am now disgustingly repulsed by my blobs of fat that it has come to a point where i think feeling hungry is good and starving is fantastic. because that means i haven't eaten. and that will come to me losing weight. yah i am mildly anorexic now. i remember never learning how to control my diet as a kid (not that i was very fat then also! but anyways) and i am disgusted by my behaviour back then. hence, i am making up for all that compulsiveness by not eating now.

the start of the second half of the academic year also means that STPM is near. it's in sight. it's 5 months away. it's time to welcome back 10 hour studying marathons and forsaking TV and saying hello to voluntarily destroy my social life. studying. pfft.

the start of the second half of the academic year also means that there are Lower 6s! sometimes, i miss being part of Lower 6. you come to school, but there's no major exam and everything is so relaxed and fun and whatever. Upper 6 is like the culmination of all your nightmarish school and exam experiences.

but whatever lah. Upper 6 also means we're nearing the exit (:



p/s: i imagine that if i had to picturize my brain, it would now be described as almost flatlining. seriously, tonight i think i am just going to die on my bed at 9pm instead of getting any studying done.

pp/s: and this whole staying back for more tutorials until 3.40pm is supposed to better our academic positions???

ppp/s: i have re-started accounting my expenses. i am bad when it comes to money. conclusion? i am now missing about an extra 10 bucks, which i've spent on don't know what at don't know where during don't know when.

pppp/s: i realized that the song 'Like A Star', which i performed at the wedding dinner where people said the female vocalist was damn chun, is quite a common song for a lot of happy endings of movies. i have now grown an emotional attachment to that song. it is synonymous with happy endings. happy romantic endings in particular.

ppppp/s: i also grow emotional attachments to inanimate objects like my house keys, my stationery and my air cond and air cond remote.